Heys.
Its 4 in the morning.
Just watch finished my favorite korean drama.
In the end it's a happy ending after all.
I really love the ending! It's like a mixed feelings ending.
There is a sadness and also happiness in the last episode.
Everything seem to be a happy ending even the drama too.
But when is my happy ending?
The last post i dedicated it to you &i really do mean it.
But now i feel all of that have been CRASHED!
I give you a second chance and u even promised me that
you will change. But why i don't see any change in you.
I know sometimes i can be too demanding. I do admit it.
But how can you do this to me. I only want you to make me
your first priority but second also will do since family always
come first. Is it that hard to that? Is just that put your game
to your third priority or after me. I swear i don't mind if you
want to play games but isn't one whole day of playing games
is too much? I know at the same time you did play your part
as a boyfriend to at least message me. I'm thankful for that.
But sometimes i also do want to do something else other than
message only. For example, msn or webcam or even talk on
the phone. When was the last we talked for a long time on
the phone? You and your excuses. I know this may sound
childish or whatsoever but i do really want to create more
memories with you. I never ask for much. I never ask you
to meet me everyday as compared to other girls. I should
not speak too soon. When is this hurting going to stop?
I really can't take this anymore. You only good to me when
we at the verge of breaking up.
I think i gave you a lot of chance already. Actually the
previous argument i really prepared myself. I really really
really prepared myself &going to be stubborn all the way
no matter what you said. But in the end i can't be stubborn.
Because i know in my heart i can't live without you seriously.
But somehow even if i can't live without you this time, i will
be stubborn all the way. I'm not threatening you but i can't
live by always being hurt by you. I can't breath.
I know you going to take your exam soon and its very
important to you. So, i really don't want to repeat from
my past mistake. I really do want to cheer you on till you
finish your exam. So please, please stop all this nonsense.
Hello(:
I don't know what reasons i have now to have the mood
to blog today. I guess my feelings now is so happy
that i felt like blogging. I'm very happy ever
since i kept remembering that particular day.
The day when you came my house.
I thought my feelings for you had already faded
each day when we were not able to meet up with each other.
However, that day brainwashed me about everything.
Everything like the negative thoughts i had all this while when
i couldn't spent time with you as we were both busy with our life
that would only makes us end up, arguing &breaking up.
I don't know what would have happen if we were really to
break up because that day make me realised that why am i always
having this mindset about breaking up with you&losing
a very good i mean really good guy just like that.
I still remembered that day that i strangled you(in a joking way) so that
to force you say "you're pretty!" to me. Unfortunately, i end up injuring
myself since you're stronger than me. But i tell you now,
I WILL GET MY REVENGE ONE DAY!(; (I know it's impossible:/)
I also remembered we played your iPhone's games together.
At first you kept winning in every different games but
after awhile later, i won more than you in all the games we
played together. To your disappointment, you snatched your phone back
very aggressively!(It was cute though when you snatched it:D)
& also....(If you want to know this, message me(: This can only be said between us:).)
These memories i had on that day helps me recall all those time
we had spent together. When i look back all those times, you really
do care and concern about my well being even though we are far apart.
But the concern part you are still lacking because you really don't know
how to comfort me when i am feeling down. But, i forgive you.
You want to know why?
Because every human has its own weaknesses &plus you're just shy:P
I hope by reading this you will forgive all my
wrongdoings that i've done that hurts you.
I thought you're really heartless.
So forgive me ok?
I really love you all my heart.
PS: Sorry this post dedicated to my baby(x
&remember i have to be your number one priority i don't care:P!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
Hope you enjoy your day with your friends.
I love you no matter what happens kk?(:
heys,
Today my mood really damn bad.
Just hate it when nowadays you just
kept not wanting to message me
anymore. It was not like we used to be.
I don't demand anything from you. All
i want is a message from you everyday
after you done everything, when you are free.
Is that a very difficult task to do?
I didn't ask you for anything.
I didn't ask you to meet me everyday.
I didn't ask you to message me every seconds.
Because i know you are stress with your exam.
Thats why i gave you some space and when you done
something wrong which hurt me without you realising it,
i just keep quiet and keep it all to myself. I don't want
to hurt you and make you more stress.
Can't you see how much i sacrifice for you?
Nowadays, when i ask for goodnight message, only takes
a few minutes to type, u said you're tired. I know you're
kinda tired of your upcoming exam but this is too much.
I seriously can't take this any longer.
You know i change a lot for you &how about you?
I'm in the edge to give up seriously.
Heys(:
Today baby came my house.
I didn't know that he like spicy food until today:'(
I cook for him soup noodle as usual for him as
he requested but unexpectedly when i put my
dishes infront of him which is chili chicken with rice,
he scold me. I was really stunt and there's a lot of
questions running in my head that time. He asked
me why my dishes is better than him and why didn't
I asked him what he really wants to eat. Actually I
already did asked him but he was too busy playing his
game with his friends, online. So, i counter back! HAHA(: !
But, he don't like to quarrel and so he said it's ok. After all,
we shared our food(: However, he is very demanding.
He don't want to eat the chicken using his hands. So,
i feed him. He also very cute!!!♥♥♥
starting that I've got three chicken and i only gave him
two and so he asked me wheres the other one. I thought i
left one chicken so that maybe when breaking fast later
at evening i could give my dad to eat it. But, its alright.
I pity my baby. He every time at home only eats maggie.
So, i gave it to him. He loves &enjoy the food(:(: I'm happy
that he was very full for the first time in a long time♥
PS: Today all about my baby♥; But, i also want to say a BIG thanks to
Lady Baka for calming my nerves &wishing me all the best for tomorrow
major exam that is my driving theory test; BTT. (For me, it's major!!)
I hope i WILL pass so that i do not need to wait long for the next same old test:'(
Hello(:
Today was not a good day for me. Although today
were raining heavily and a good chance for me to have
a peaceful sleep in this wonderful weather, I could not.
Even though I ate my medicine to ease my stomach
pains, it still did not go away. Hence, it disturb my
beautiful sleep. My stomach pain came every less than
10 minutes which makes me woke up each time. The
pain really kills me. I can't even do anything. The whole
day I was just lying down on the sofa. After a short nap,
I want to eat something as the whole day i just ate a small
bite of bread.When i was walking towards the kitchen, I
don't know what happen, i just went black out. I fell down
on my knees and it still hurts now. This is how sick I am
today &also definitely not a good day for me either.
PS: No matter what, I try my best to be understanding. ILY♥
Heys(:
HAHA. Finally, i finished changing my blogskin.
It was tough to figure it out on my own.
For your guys' info, the previous blogskin was totally
done by my lil sis. HAHA, srzly i'm not good at all.
Anyways, you guys must be wondering what i've
been doing lately right? Especially you, nabilah! HAHA!
Actually nowadays, all i do is to help my mum with chores.
Even if i went out, i went out with only my family.
For example, Last Good Friday, we went to east coast park!
Haha, this is the second time actually.
Sorry, didnt post anything about the first outing on my
blog due to my laziness. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D!
We help our younger cousins to fly kite. It was windy
at that time and the kite fly quite high! Thanks to me!
We played bubbles & eat ice cream! HAHA. That's all.
I've hanged out with my friends with only three times.
First one was with nabilah, che soon and jonathan.
we went shopping at town, watch movie & then play pool.
It was like a first time for nabilah and me to play pool.
But still, we just played. It was fun!
Thanks to che soon who teach us so diligently(:
The second one was with the same people like the first.
But this time accompany jonathan repair his lappy.
After that we go shopping as jonathan wanted to buy a pair
of shoes to go out on his ____ . HAHA.
For a guy, he really gave alot of thoughts before buying things.
Weird! HAHA:D! Then we go play pool again.
This time, nabilah and i played much better than before.
Nabilah improved a lot! HAHA :P!
The last one was quite recently on the wednesday,
on the 7th april. This time nabilah cant join us as she
have an job interview :(
Intentionally, I and nic plan to go out with a lot of people
but end up they all cant go due to some reasons.
So, left the four of us. Nic, jonathan, che soon & me.
But it was still very fun except that they bully me as
im the only girl and also i'm the only malay :(
Jonathan! U are sooooooooooooooo meannnnnn!
We decided to play pool first then go buy movie tickets.
At the pool, i was very lucky to be able to score
4 times continuously! HAHA! Again, thanks to che soon!
While waiting, we went to play bowling. HAHA!
This is the part where it was very interesting!
1st game, che soon won but the 2nd unexpextedly, I won!!!
HAHA. Although there are two experts, che soon & nic,
I STILL WON! HAHA :P! SO LUCKY^^ .
Then reached home at 10pm, nag by my mum ...
Btw, i would like to say thanks to three people.
Firsly, to my beloved daddy for buying me a wonderful
gift, iPhone:D . I promise you, i will study very hard in poly.
Anyway guys, i went to republic poly. I know u guys
would think why i chose to go there.
But for everything that happens, happened for a reason.
Secondly, to my other daddy(godbrother),
Thanks for the cute soft toy "tiger"!
Love it & i will really treasure it!
I know you went to Hong Kong and not Australia!
HAHAHAHA! THE soft toy stated
" Hong Kong Disneyland " .
You cant lie to me!!! HAHA :P!
Lastly, to my dearest baby,
Thanks for the ring(: !
Dont worry, i'll promise you i will wear it
everywhere i go. Including going to school. Ok?
Love you lots!
XOXO
