Heys.
Its 4 in the morning.
Just watch finished my favorite korean drama.
In the end it's a happy ending after all.
I really love the ending! It's like a mixed feelings ending.
There is a sadness and also happiness in the last episode.
Everything seem to be a happy ending even the drama too.
But when is my happy ending?
The last post i dedicated it to you &i really do mean it.
But now i feel all of that have been CRASHED!
I give you a second chance and u even promised me that
you will change. But why i don't see any change in you.
I know sometimes i can be too demanding. I do admit it.
But how can you do this to me. I only want you to make me
your first priority but second also will do since family always
come first. Is it that hard to that? Is just that put your game
to your third priority or after me. I swear i don't mind if you
want to play games but isn't one whole day of playing games
is too much? I know at the same time you did play your part
as a boyfriend to at least message me. I'm thankful for that.
But sometimes i also do want to do something else other than
message only. For example, msn or webcam or even talk on
the phone. When was the last we talked for a long time on
the phone? You and your excuses. I know this may sound
childish or whatsoever but i do really want to create more
memories with you. I never ask for much. I never ask you
to meet me everyday as compared to other girls. I should
not speak too soon. When is this hurting going to stop?
I really can't take this anymore. You only good to me when
we at the verge of breaking up.
I think i gave you a lot of chance already. Actually the
previous argument i really prepared myself. I really really
really prepared myself &going to be stubborn all the way
no matter what you said. But in the end i can't be stubborn.
Because i know in my heart i can't live without you seriously.
But somehow even if i can't live without you this time, i will
be stubborn all the way. I'm not threatening you but i can't
live by always being hurt by you. I can't breath.
I know you going to take your exam soon and its very
important to you. So, i really don't want to repeat from
my past mistake. I really do want to cheer you on till you
finish your exam. So please, please stop all this nonsense.
