Farhana

2010-10-02T03:29:00.002+08:00

Heys.

Its 4 in the morning.

Just watch finished my favorite korean drama.

In the end it's a happy ending after all.

I really love the ending! It's like a mixed feelings ending.

There is a sadness and also happiness in the last episode.

Everything seem to be a happy ending even the drama too.

But when is my happy ending?

The last post i dedicated it to you &i really do mean it.

But now i feel all of that have been CRASHED!

I give you a second chance and u even promised me that

you will change. But why i don't see any change in you.

I know sometimes i can be too demanding. I do admit it.

But how can you do this to me. I only want you to make me

your first priority but second also will do since family always

come first. Is it that hard to that? Is just that put your game

to your third priority or after me. I swear i don't mind if you

want to play games but isn't one whole day of playing games

is too much? I know at the same time you did play your part

as a boyfriend to at least message me. I'm thankful for that.

But sometimes i also do want to do something else other than

message only. For example, msn or webcam or even talk on

the phone. When was the last we talked for a long time on

the phone? You and your excuses. I know this may sound

childish or whatsoever but i do really want to create more

memories with you. I never ask for much. I never ask you

to meet me everyday as compared to other girls. I should

not speak too soon. When is this hurting going to stop?

I really can't take this anymore. You only good to me when

we at the verge of breaking up.

I think i gave you a lot of chance already. Actually the

previous argument i really prepared myself. I really really

really prepared myself &going to be stubborn all the way

no matter what you said. But in the end i can't be stubborn.

Because i know in my heart i can't live without you seriously.

But somehow even if i can't live without you this time, i will

be stubborn all the way. I'm not threatening you but i can't

live by always being hurt by you. I can't breath.

I know you going to take your exam soon and its very

important to you. So, i really don't want to repeat from

my past mistake. I really do want to cheer you on till you

finish your exam. So please, please stop all this nonsense.

2010-09-30T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hello(:

I don't know what reasons i have now to have the mood

to blog today. I guess my feelings now is so happy

that i felt like blogging. I'm very happy ever

since i kept remembering that particular day.

The day when you came my house.

I thought my feelings for you had already faded

each day when we were not able to meet up with each other.

However, that day brainwashed me about everything.

Everything like the negative thoughts i had all this while when

i couldn't spent time with you as we were both busy with our life

that would only makes us end up, arguing &breaking up.

I don't know what would have happen if we were really to

break up because that day make me realised that why am i always

having this mindset about breaking up with you&losing

a very good i mean really good guy just like that.

I still remembered that day that i strangled you(in a joking way) so that

to force you say "you're pretty!" to me. Unfortunately, i end up injuring

myself since you're stronger than me. But i tell you now,

I WILL GET MY REVENGE ONE DAY!(; (I know it's impossible:/)

I also remembered we played your iPhone's games together.

At first you kept winning in every different games but

after awhile later, i won more than you in all the games we

played together. To your disappointment, you snatched your phone back

very aggressively!(It was cute though when you snatched it:D)

& also....(If you want to know this, message me(: This can only be said between us:).)

These memories i had on that day helps me recall all those time

we had spent together. When i look back all those times, you really

do care and concern about my well being even though we are far apart.

But the concern part you are still lacking because you really don't know

how to comfort me when i am feeling down. But, i forgive you.

You want to know why?

Because every human has its own weaknesses &plus you're just shy:P

I hope by reading this you will forgive all my

wrongdoings that i've done that hurts you.

I thought you're really heartless.

So forgive me ok?

I really love you all my heart.

PS: Sorry this post dedicated to my baby(x

&remember i have to be your number one priority i don't care:P!

2010-09-17T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

Hope you enjoy your day with your friends.

I love you no matter what happens kk?(:

2010-08-27T00:17:00.010+08:00

heys,

Today my mood really damn bad.

Just hate it when nowadays you just

kept not wanting to message me

anymore. It was not like we used to be.

I don't demand anything from you. All

i want is a message from you everyday

after you done everything, when you are free.

Is that a very difficult task to do?

I didn't ask you for anything.

I didn't ask you to meet me everyday.

I didn't ask you to message me every seconds.

Because i know you are stress with your exam.

Thats why i gave you some space and when you done

something wrong which hurt me without you realising it,

i just keep quiet and keep it all to myself. I don't want

to hurt you and make you more stress.

Can't you see how much i sacrifice for you?

Nowadays, when i ask for goodnight message, only takes

a few minutes to type, u said you're tired. I know you're

kinda tired of your upcoming exam but this is too much.

I seriously can't take this any longer.

You know i change a lot for you &how about you?

I'm in the edge to give up seriously.

2010-08-23T20:29:00.011+08:00

Heys(:

Today baby came my house.

I didn't know that he like spicy food until today:'(

I cook for him soup noodle as usual for him as

he requested but unexpectedly when i put my

dishes infront of him which is chili chicken with rice,

he scold me. I was really stunt and there's a lot of

questions running in my head that time. He asked

me why my dishes is better than him and why didn't

I asked him what he really wants to eat. Actually I

already did asked him but he was too busy playing his

game with his friends, online. So, i counter back! HAHA(: !

But, he don't like to quarrel and so he said it's ok. After all,

we shared our food(: However, he is very demanding.

He don't want to eat the chicken using his hands. So,

i feed him. He also very cute!!!♥♥♥

starting that I've got three chicken and i only gave him

two and so he asked me wheres the other one. I thought i

left one chicken so that maybe when breaking fast later

at evening i could give my dad to eat it. But, its alright.

I pity my baby. He every time at home only eats maggie.

So, i gave it to him. He loves &enjoy the food(:(: I'm happy

that he was very full for the first time in a long time♥

PS: Today all about my baby♥; But, i also want to say a BIG thanks to

Lady Baka for calming my nerves &wishing me all the best for tomorrow

major exam that is my driving theory test; BTT. (For me, it's major!!)

I hope i WILL pass so that i do not need to wait long for the next same old test:'(

2010-08-18T16:47:00.000+08:00

Hello(:

Today was not a good day for me. Although today

were raining heavily and a good chance for me to have

a peaceful sleep in this wonderful weather, I could not.

Even though I ate my medicine to ease my stomach

pains, it still did not go away. Hence, it disturb my

beautiful sleep. My stomach pain came every less than

10 minutes which makes me woke up each time. The

pain really kills me. I can't even do anything. The whole

day I was just lying down on the sofa. After a short nap,

I want to eat something as the whole day i just ate a small

bite of bread.When i was walking towards the kitchen, I

don't know what happen, i just went black out. I fell down

on my knees and it still hurts now. This is how sick I am

today &also definitely not a good day for me either.

PS: No matter what, I try my best to be understanding. ILY♥

2010-04-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

Heys(:

HAHA. Finally, i finished changing my blogskin.
It was tough to figure it out on my own.
For your guys' info, the previous blogskin was totally
done by my lil sis. HAHA, srzly i'm not good at all.

Anyways, you guys must be wondering what i've
been doing lately right? Especially you, nabilah! HAHA!
Actually nowadays, all i do is to help my mum with chores.
Even if i went out, i went out with only my family.

For example, Last Good Friday, we went to east coast park!
Haha, this is the second time actually.
Sorry, didnt post anything about the first outing on my
blog due to my laziness. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D!
We help our younger cousins to fly kite. It was windy
at that time and the kite fly quite high! Thanks to me!
We played bubbles & eat ice cream! HAHA. That's all.

I've hanged out with my friends with only three times.
First one was with nabilah, che soon and jonathan.
we went shopping at town, watch movie & then play pool.
It was like a first time for nabilah and me to play pool.
But still, we just played. It was fun!
Thanks to che soon who teach us so diligently(:

The second one was with the same people like the first.
But this time accompany jonathan repair his lappy.
After that we go shopping as jonathan wanted to buy a pair
of shoes to go out on his ____ . HAHA.
For a guy, he really gave alot of thoughts before buying things.
Weird! HAHA:D! Then we go play pool again.
This time, nabilah and i played much better than before.
Nabilah improved a lot! HAHA :P!

The last one was quite recently on the wednesday,
on the 7th april. This time nabilah cant join us as she
have an job interview :(
Intentionally, I and nic plan to go out with a lot of people
but end up they all cant go due to some reasons.
So, left the four of us. Nic, jonathan, che soon & me.
But it was still very fun except that they bully me as
im the only girl and also i'm the only malay :(
Jonathan! U are sooooooooooooooo meannnnnn!
We decided to play pool first then go buy movie tickets.
At the pool, i was very lucky to be able to score
4 times continuously! HAHA! Again, thanks to che soon!
While waiting, we went to play bowling. HAHA!
This is the part where it was very interesting!
1st game, che soon won but the 2nd unexpextedly, I won!!!
HAHA. Although there are two experts, che soon & nic,
I STILL WON! HAHA :P! SO LUCKY^^ .
Then reached home at 10pm, nag by my mum ...

Btw, i would like to say thanks to three people.
Firsly, to my beloved daddy for buying me a wonderful
gift, iPhone:D . I promise you, i will study very hard in poly.
Anyway guys, i went to republic poly. I know u guys
would think why i chose to go there.
But for everything that happens, happened for a reason.

Secondly, to my other daddy(godbrother),
Thanks for the cute soft toy "tiger"!
Love it & i will really treasure it!
I know you went to Hong Kong and not Australia!
HAHAHAHA! THE soft toy stated
" Hong Kong Disneyland " .
You cant lie to me!!! HAHA :P!

Lastly, to my dearest baby,
Thanks for the ring(: !
Dont worry, i'll promise you i will wear it
everywhere i go. Including going to school. Ok?
Love you lots!
XOXO

2010-04-02T01:40:00.000+08:00

Heys.

Currently my mood is not that good. I feel damn sad now.
I don't know if he right now have no prepaid or just simply
lazy to message me. I've been waiting for like 8 hours and
still no reply from him. I know he is currently now at malaysia.
I just hope it's the connection problem.
I'm so confused now.

2010-03-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Heys[:

Today, i just finished watching one particular drama.
It taught me one great lesson.
If anyone out there who have no goal in life,
must believe in yourself confidently that one day
you will definitely find what you want to do the
most in the future^^ .

Lately, i also have been thinking a lot about our future.
We will be in different school, different environtment &
will have different group of friends.
I am really, really, really scared now.
I dont know what will happen to me if we were to
really go our seperate ways.
This thoughts makes me really scared.
Will your attitude change in the future?
Will you still be loyal to me in the future?
Will your feelings for me still be the same in the future?
All this questions make me really worry.
Can u help me answer this again? Please reassure me.

One thing for sure, i will definitely be loyal to you.
I know actions speak louder than words.
But really from the bottom of my heart, i dont want
to look for other better guys. Everyone is not perfect.

So can u stop saying all that, the changes and ask me
go look for other better guys? Can?

2010-03-18T19:10:00.000+08:00

Heys(:

[180310]

HAHA! Today went out to BUGIS with my mum.
Yesterday, forced her to go out with me.
Pity my mum for staying at home everyday.
At first, i'm worried that she will have to stand in the train
till we reached Bugis but luckily a gentleman gave up his seat
to my mommy. It was sweet of him though i find his age was about
the same as my mum. HAHA. But thanks anyway ya(:
At Bugis, i bought 3 belt, 2 sleeveless shirt, a jacket, a bag
and a beanie for my sister^^ .
TOTAL i spent about $70. It was worth shopping in Bugis
than at the neighbourhood shopping mall :D .

PS: I really enjoy myself shopping there because you
accompany me, mommy! Except for the complaints.
HEHE:D

[170310]

I didn’t know holidays would be this looooooooong.
I just feel like schooling now. Not that I’m excited to start school.
But just feel bored at home):
I learn something today, I can’t live without money.
I know I can’t force my parents to buy something that they can’t afford.
I know I have to make full use of what I have now
But still, my obsessions of these two things are like crazy.
I can’t get over it and move on with my life. It’s so hard.
However, for the sake of my mummy,
I need to control it. I need to be patient as well.
I think this is the only way I can show my understanding for them^^.

Anyway, recently I went out with my baby. We went to various places.
We just walk here and there. It was more fun than watching movie.
We could spent more time talking about our pasts and our problems we're
facing now. It was a very wonderful day that day^^ ^^ ^^.
I will not forget that day, you too ok?

Some pictures to share with you guys on that day(: ...

2010-02-28T02:39:00.000+08:00

280208♥

Happy 2 years Anniversary Baby (: !
Im very happy that we overcome all the obstacles together till this day.
Thanks for the love you've been giving me for the past 2 years.

2010-02-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

Hi[:

Its been loooooong since i've updated, right?
Partly thanks to someone who use my baby name to hurt me.
Because of that, i want to update.
Partly is because i've been really busy with my work lately.
But since i have quitted my job, ive been catching up on things these days.
& For now i just want to relax at home and of course i cant wait to
go out with my beloved best friends, Nabilah and Marissa:D .

However, when i need this time to relax myself, things happened.
I dont know why this type of people exist in this world. Maybe, they have
nothing to do much with their lives and they need to kill time criticizing people
without facts. Their mouth cant even stay shut. (:
I really sympathize to whoever you are.
Now, let me tell you this, dont you ever think that i wont trust
my baby. I will. I know what type of person my baby is and even if he really
hates me, he wont say all those things beacause he knows its pointless.

So, my advise to you is, stop all this nonsense. Its not going to work on us.
I know you want to break us apart but have you ever thought of what you've
gain when you achieve it? Nothing right?

PS: Nothing can break me and my baby apart just because of this
little, small things. We have faith in each other. Dont worry.
Lastly, i know who you are. Only you would do this pointless thing.
Get a life ok?

2010-01-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

HEYS[:

Its been long since i updated my blog. Sorry everyone):
I've been busy with work.
I know everyone been waiting or dying to know my result,
am i right ?
But im sorry, i wont reveal it. Im too ashamed to reveal it.
I can only say that the 6 subject i took,
i only did quite well for 4 subjects. The other two subjects i failed.
Im very suprised that i failed for this one particular subject.
All my effort was wasted but i do deserved it though.

Anyway i want to take this opportunity to thank all the teachers
who have help me in my O level. I really appreciate your guys' help(:

PS: For now, i just want to start afresh. I know its hard to live without you
because everywhere i go, it will definitely remind me of you. I dont know
if it is the same for you. But you are already part of my life. So, let time heal
my wound now. Everyday i will try to forget you like how i used to forget
the others.

2009-12-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

It ended today.

My only advise for you is dont repeat the same mistake to your next ...
Grow up please.

GOODbye.

2009-12-11T01:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO [:

Not much things happen nowadays.
Only that im just tired of working everyday.
Need to work straight and no more off day
because i need to go to the CSP course.

Due to work damn hard for the sake of money,
i fell sick today. I cant even wake up in the morning.
I felt like my body shut down at that moment.
SO, i message my boss that i cant work today.
I know it is wrong for me to tell you through message
but i was scared to call you personally.
I'm sincerely sorry. And also thanks for replying
though it was very late.

Anyway i regret i didnt follow my lil sis to the airport
to see all the korean artist that came to s'pore): !!!
She get to see one of my fav band there, that is FT Island!
WAHH! She's lucky to get to see them in reality!
Blame my sickness.

PS: Thanks for your concern baby! Love you lots! ♥

2009-12-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO (:

Long time since i blogged):
Has been busy with work. Hard to get a day off.
ONLY can off one day of the week and that will only be on weekdays.
Trying very hard to get used of the work. My only worry is the
customer who ask a bizarre question which is very hard to answer.

Thank god that the people who work there is quite friendly except one.

My bestfriend find this job interesting and challenging. She also
thinks that this job is worth it. However, i find it boring. I can only
agree with this job is challenging. Thats all. For now, i dont have the
answer wheather this job is worth it or not.
Hope i can find the anwer soon(:

2009-11-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

Hello (:

Long time since i updated(:
Sorry, been busy finding jobs& helping my mum(a little, not that much:D).
I didnt realised that finding jobs was hard. Now i know how it really felt.

Anyway GOOD NEWS to share with everyone!
I and my BESTFRIEND GET THE JOB!
We were DAMN HAPPY!
Though thats not the job we were hoping for but we should be grateful, right?
Hope BOTH of us get the same outlet.
Pray for us ya?

I dont know what will happen to me tomorrow):
I hope i can find my way there without getting lost or confused.

PS: I love you mommy. I didnt mean to speak to you rudely.
Anyway i hate to be compared to other people and always allow 'you' to
make the final decision for me. Now, could i just ask for a little freedom?
By starting to support any decision i'm going to make in future, can?

2009-11-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

HELLO :)

161109

The Graduation Day

Like i expected, its just an ordinary day. Anyway, time flies very fast.

A lot had happened during these 5 years in the school. For me, the momories left me

were mostly hurtful and sorrows. The happy moments i had in the school can only be

counted. The most painful experienced i had was in the recent year. Someone i knew

and trusted most, framed and betrayed me.

The story goes like this...

The person was very friendly, too friendly that it makes you want to be close to them.
'You' brainwashed peoples' minds with 'your' talkings. That makes people believe you
so much. Till i even ignored my mother's advise which IS not to trust someone very

quickly. I dont understand why people around you are SO gulible. Believe every words

'you' say and not listening to the other side of the stories which is the TRUTH. I just

couldnt stop feeling BAD about the people around 'you'.

Doesnt mean i kept quiet means that you ARE telling the truth (as if what you said
was even credible) I just dont want to waste time fighting over how many more friends
'you' have or i have. Grow Up. Talking about childishness. And one more thing,

doesnt mean gaining more friends means 'you' can gain their loyalty too. In this world,

you cant trust anybody except your family members.

So think twice before 'you' act ok?

PS: Dont be too dramatic in your new school ok? I dont think anybody wants to 'buy' it.

Last words for 'you'; I wish you well in 'your' new life. :)

2009-11-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

HEYS (:

Tomorrow is my graduation day.

Everyone who are graduating would feel very excited and looking forward

for the day.

But for me and my friends its simply just a n0rmal day.

I just hope tomorrow would not be an ordinary day.

Hopefully.

Currently not well.

Hope to get well soon.

Thanks to whoever are concern about me especially 'you'.

PS: So sorry sis for not thanking you sooner for making this blog possible.

THANK YOU& LOVE YOU LOTS! (:

2009-11-15T02:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO (:

131109

Went out with my baby.

at first we quarrel, a BIG one!

But we were ok after boarding the train.

thank you baby for being patient with my temper!

BUT still your fault:P

Went to watch Jennifer's Body movie.

it was DAMN gory and bloody!

It was a very SWEET and FUN spending time with you.

Looking forward to go out with you again(:

THIS TIME NO FIGHT.

PS: HOPE you guys can make it on the 28th Nov!